Need to turn it around...

Well I gotta say, I really did forget about my blog. Blogs feel so old, now that Facebook and Twitter have had thier way with me. Then again, it sure feels good writing something longer than a couple of sentences, and is not a work email. I certainly have been through a bloody adventure since my last post in Jan 08'. Living in L.A. once again, adjusted to the people and traffic, saw the worst in people and found new friends. All the while, missing the life I left behind in Idaho. Now that I am at the end of this chapter, it feels like I have nothing but a another failed attempt at a better life to show for all of it. Another loss, another bad decision. Getting harder to shake those off nowadays. Im not getting any younger and the concept of time is beggining to weigh down on me. Am I running out of it? Are theses opportunites going to stop coming my way? I really hope not. But I cant linger on all that. I just have to look forward and tackle the next obstacle. It has been great reconnecting with my old friends. Picture is getting clearer when it comes to friends. I know who are, who are not and who are pretending.

However, I know a little more about myself now too. I have changed since moving to Idaho. For the best/worst, I guess depends on who's asking. I feel the same, but everyone says I am not. Not sure who I used to be but I like me now. So the hell with it, I am what I am.