Depression

My friend Uni, has been blogging about sadness and depression a lot lately and it's got me thinking. Depression Sucks. A vast majority of the worlds population suffer from depression and yet hardly anyone ever talks to a doctor. The quote from the site I am reading from states, "Most people with depression never seek help, even though the majority will respond to treatment." That is amazing. What is it with people and not wanting to take prescribed drugs to help cure their depression? Is it better to be sad? Is it better to hurt your family and friends? Is it better to lose your job or spouse? I sometimes feel what can be defined as depressed, but its not all the time. I am lucky to have a very supportive girlfriend who puts up with my bouts of insecurities and helplessness. But even she doesn't know the extent of my sadness and I need to keep it that way. Why? Because she doesn't deserve this crap. I can honestly admit that a lot of my sadness stems from bad decisions made in my youth which I am now paying for. So this forces me to feel completely useless in this life.

So why dont I, and all my talk, seek help for myself? See previous post.

Money=Sanity

Say what you want, but money does bring happiness. As I prepare myself for yet another job change, it occurs to me that all the people that say money is not everything, clearly dont know what the hell they are talking about. Money is absolutely everything. As you can prob guess, I am changing jobs again because I am being offered more money. Quite a bit more than what I am currently making. However, I will be working a lot harder and putting in more hours. When I gave my notice the discussion about maintaining ones sanity came up in the conversation. They were talking about why I would want to work so much harder when they can offer me a raise and keep my nice and easy office job. This new job is not in an office and they pay pretty good. But when it comes to sanity, nothing makes me more insane than not being able to afford things. I may just be a greedy bastard but to me, money makes the world go 'round.